Note to Self: Survive the Storm She Left Behind

This one’s for the days when the heart is loud but the world expects silence. When you’re trying to stay stable, while your mind and chest are fighting like enemies. It’s about a love that never provided the space to become, only demanded I stay small to be accepted.

So, I say:

Some days…

I feel like I’m standing on glass.

Cracks forming under my feet,

But I pretend I don’t hear them.

My head’s a battlefield,

Voices clashing with memories,

Logic begging me to move on,

And my heart?

Still stuck in a moment that never fully existed.

I wasn’t perfect.

But I wasn’t a villain either.

I just… needed space to breathe,

To heal,

To grow into someone who could love better.

Not someone who had to perform love to earn it.

Love isn’t about becoming flawless. It’s about becoming seen, even in your mess.

You never gave me that chance.

No pause, no restart.

Just judgment.

Like every step I took toward happiness

Was somehow a betrayal of what we should have been.

But how do you grow in a place where

You’re not allowed to unfold?

I fought battles you’ll never see.

Woke up every day to be “better”,

Not for you, not for me…

But for us.

But “us” was already dead, wasn’t it?

You buried it under silence.

Under control.

Under that cruel need to always be right,

Even when my heart was breaking

Right in front of you.

This isn’t about blame anymore. It’s about clarity, of what love should never have to feel like.

And still, I stayed.

Not because I didn’t know better…

But because I believed

Love could fix things.

I was wrong.

Now I sit with the pieces,

Of a marriage that cracked

Before it was ever held together.

And yet…

I don’t hate you.

I hate that I couldn't fix it.

I hate that I tried to love louder,

While you grew quieter.

But this is my note to self.

To stay upright.

To breathe through the heaviness.

To remember:

Love is not proven by sacrifice alone.

It’s held together by space, safety, and the freedom to fail.

You never gave me that.

So no, I’m not broken.

Just tired.

Just… learning how to stop bleeding for someone

Who never learned how to hold me without cutting deeper.

Thodi Si Dhoop, Thoda Sa Pyaar

Subah ki baarish thi… thandi, khamosh.

Dil ne khol ke saans li,
Jaise koi purani baat phir se mehka gayi.
Khaali cup, bheegi khidki,
Aur uski yaadon ka ek lamha
Bas itna hi kaafi tha din shuru karne ko.

Dopahar aayi… dhoop ke saath.

Thoda sa garmi, thoda sa intezaar.
Jaise uske ek message ka wait,
Jo kabhi aata nahi,
Par lagta hai, bas abhi aayega.
Dil pighalta gaya,
Jaise kacchi zameen pe pehli dhoop girti hai 

Ummeed se bhari, aur thodi se adhoori.

Shaam phir se bheeg gayi.

Aur main… usi khidki ke paas tha.
Wahi hawa, wahi rim jhim,
Par is baar… uski muskaan yaad aayi.

Ek pal ke liye laga,
Woh kahin yahin paas khadi hai,
Usi baarish mein, jahan hum kabhi saath bheege the.

Baarish sirf mausam nahi hoti,
Yeh toh ek yaad ka raasta hai,
Jo subah ki thandak se nikal kar,
Dopahar ki chubhan mein se hote hue,
Shaam tak… pyaar ki baarish banke girti hai.

The Kite That Never Landed

I remember the day vividly, the way her smile reached me long before our hearts formally intertwined. There was something captivating about her presence, something that assured me I was hers, and she was mine. Our wedding day was nothing short of perfect. The shlokas echoed through the air, tying us in a knot that felt eternal, while the crowd around us cheered, marking a great milestone in both our lives. But it was more than just a ceremony; it was a promise. Or so I thought.

Relationships, much like kites, are fragile. They soar high, defying the wind, basking in the vastness of the sky. But they are also vulnerable. A gust too strong, a wind too unpredictable, and they tremble. Our bond, too, trembled. At first, it was exhilarating, like the kite catching its first breeze. But soon, the same wind became too cold, too unpredictable, and I could feel the strain.

There was no single moment when things went wrong. It was gradual. Subtle shifts, small misunderstandings, expectations unfulfilled. I wanted her time. I wanted to be with her, console her, help her. Was that too much? I asked myself a thousand times. While I waited for 12 months, could I have waited 6 more? Could I have done more? The what-ifs piled up like heavy stones, weighing down the love I had poured into us.

We tried to keep it together, for the sake of our families, for the sake of appearances. But behind closed doors, the silences grew louder, the distance wider. I wanted to reach out, to hold her, to scream that we could make it, that things could be alright if we just gave it one last try. But I couldn't. She left, quietly, as if all we had meant nothing.

And here I am, still questioning it all. How can you give so much of yourself, invest every emotion, and still end up alone? How is life supposed to be worth it when the very essence of what you believed in slips away? Love, they say, is supposed to be enough. But sometimes, love gets lost in the winds. And just like that kite, our bond came crashing down, leaving me staring at the sky, wondering why.

Is it possible to hold on too tight? Maybe. Or maybe it was never about holding on at all. Maybe it was about letting go when the time was right. But how do you know when that time is? I’m still searching for the answer.

As I sit here today, reflecting on it all, I still hear the echoes of that day, still feel the warmth of her smile. And yet, I also feel the chill of the breeze that tore us apart. It’s strange, isn’t it? To have loved so deeply, only to find yourself questioning the very worth of it all.

#GrowSolid #GrowBetter

What is Love?

:: It is what you want it to be ::

It gets sketchier to talk experiences. 

There is nothing more dear to us that a valid companion. "Valid" because not everyone is compatible with you for a long term. When you see the reason to latch on to someone, be the reason for them to latch on to you too, unconditionally!

Is it in a feeling you reside?

Or the one for whom you can't decide...

It is really a simple question to ask,

Deep'er you think, deeper gets the task.

15 Simple Yogic Things To Stay Strong This Winter

So I was conversing with a friend recently, about how the winter is getting colder this year. We chalked some great and 'Doable' Yogic Ideas to stay fit and healthy in this time. These should help prepare your body for the cold and get healthier through the winter. Yoga is not just a form of physical training and meditation, but is a lifestyle and philosophy as well.

50 Young Video Feature: Asha Kulkarni, Computer Professional

 

Video Brief

50 Young is this adorable group of 50+, determined to infuse happiness in the second innings. This is a super active group which believes in sharing and caring.  This is a video interaction with Asha Kulkarni, a new exciting informal recruit. She is an example for many and has a special message on how to rejuvenate one's life, career and emotions. 

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For Men: #GharKeNuske for Better Skin

Men need grooming too, some more than others. Most men might not wear make up or grow their hair past their shoulders but that doesn’t mean the majority of my skin care tips don’t apply. A healthy skin care regimen is just as important for men as it is women. But let’s face it- many men prefer a fuss free approach to skin care that is quick and easy to follow. So let’s break it down into an easy five step program to help all men reap the rewards of good skin care.

#GharKeNuske for a Better Skin.

Raw honey

This is naturally anti-bacterial and a super quick way to clearer skin. Once a week use a tablespoon or so of raw honey (not the processed stuff parading as honey) and gently warm it by rubbing your fingertips together.

Apple Cider Vinegar Clarifying Shampoo

For those who are using commercial shampoos, you need to eliminate any build up in your hair, mix ¼ cup organic apple cider vinegar (like this) with 1 cup water. Follow with your usual conditioner.

Elbow and Knee Exfoliate and Skin Brightener 

Cut an orange in half and rub it on your elbows and knees. Helps soften those rough patches. And it smells good. (Rinse off the sticky mess when you are done.)

Coconut Oil

This is a perfect Shaving cream alternative. Can use a scented one.

See gentlemen, it’s really that simple! And the best part is that if you incorporate these into your daily regimen, you will definitely notice a difference in your appearance. It’s a fuss free way towards healthy, handsome skin.

However, when in hurry, it is always advisable to go for natural products and avoid chemical based products. Men can also use this Vicco turmeric cream with Foam, check out: http://www.viccolabs.com/product-turmeric-cream-with-foam-base.php

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A #ShortLoveStory

I am not a Story Guy, but there is this one story that just happened to build up in my head. I am sure you would like it too.

This is how it goes...

A #ShortLoveStory

There was a really small village called Sarangpur. Shanker was a guy, maybe in his late twenties, who lived here or you can say was trying to survive. From a Not-so-well-to-do familiy, Shanker tried to support his mom and dad as the family was completely in debt of the filthy rich village Mukhiya. Over the time, their condition had worsened and they kept taking loans. 

Tum Yahin Ho...

Guzri hai kya, yeh teri aadat, teri Aarzoo kahin,

Teri adaa, Yeh justajoo hi toh hai, jo khud pe kaabu nahin...

Koi Kare takraar is tanha dil se jo Teri,

Khushnaseeb hoga, bach jaye wo kahin...